2 weeks

Yesterday was Caleb's 2 week birthday. It seems like he's been in this world for months, not just a mere 2 weeks. Being a mom thus far has been a challenging but rewarding experience. My life is forever changed, which sometimes scares me and other times excites me. I'm still trying to figure out how to be a mom, how to manage a household along with a newborn, and honestly how to keep my sanity amidst the sleepless nights and fussy spouts.

Even though these past 2 weeks have been hard emotionally, mentally, physically, and every other which way, it has been rewarding. When I look at Caleb I remember how the Lord protected him for almost 7 months in the womb while we were in Tanzania from malaria and other harmful diseases. I remember how the Lord blessed us with a smooth labor and delivery and how he blessed us with a completely healthy boy. These are the things I try to remind myself at 3am when I am fighting sleep and trying to keep Caleb awake to nurse or when he's being fussy and I have no idea what's wrong with him.

But even since he's been born I've seen some change in him. He's an active little boy - he hates for his arms to be swaddled; he is more alert than before and knows my voice when I say something across the room. He is getting to be more and more vocal too - he has this sigh that he makes when he's done nursing or is laying down that sounds like he is the most satisfied little baby in the world. I love it and it makes those sleepless nights and fussy times worthwhile.